I want to be the kind of Jedi my master was and wanted me to be, the Jedi he saw in me when I couldn't see it for myself.
But I'm going to have to do that here. Just like you. I can't worry about whether or not I'll be the one to rebuild the Order when I get back home. And you can't worry about whether or not it'll need rebuilding.
Well, we can, but it won't be very productive. Or healthy, probably. Take it from a guy who was trapped in another galaxy for years who went over every possibility.
And I almost abandoned all of it here because I didn’t think I deserved it. Because I let down not only my master, but everyone.
Now I realize that it’s not my fault. And I want to be the Jedi I’m supposed to be. What that means here, I still haven’t figured out. I have no illusions of rebuilding anything here. I just want to live the way I had been taught to the best of my ability. To honor my master and my family as best I can.
[Honestly, Ezra had just wanted to get away from the conversation where he was the one who needed support. He'll keep hiding his feelings a while longer, even if he's repeating all the future stuff for himself more than Obi-Wan.]
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But I'm going to have to do that here. Just like you. I can't worry about whether or not I'll be the one to rebuild the Order when I get back home. And you can't worry about whether or not it'll need rebuilding.
Well, we can, but it won't be very productive. Or healthy, probably. Take it from a guy who was trapped in another galaxy for years who went over every possibility.
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And I almost abandoned all of it here because I didn’t think I deserved it. Because I let down not only my master, but everyone.
Now I realize that it’s not my fault. And I want to be the Jedi I’m supposed to be. What that means here, I still haven’t figured out. I have no illusions of rebuilding anything here. I just want to live the way I had been taught to the best of my ability. To honor my master and my family as best I can.
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[Honestly, Ezra had just wanted to get away from the conversation where he was the one who needed support. He'll keep hiding his feelings a while longer, even if he's repeating all the future stuff for himself more than Obi-Wan.]
You really should change up your hair, though.
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Obi-Wan just sighs.]
We’ll see.
[Hes not much in a joking mood anymore.]