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[Obi-Wan feels himself tense up. He finds himself in a weird state. A part of him wanting to get defensive, and yet he knew he shouldn’t. He was conflicted.]

That’s just it. I wasn’t scared. I wanted to go to the temple. The Order is my family, and I have no regrets.

Things haven’t changed from the point I came from. Aside from my master being killed.

All I know is what everyone here has told me. And being open to the the thought of my entire family, my people, our culture, getting snuffed out is a lot to ask.

Your future has already changed because you're here. But since I know we've gone over that before, I won't dwell on that point.

To say that the Jedi no longer exist in the future is to say that I don't exist.

Unless you'd like to take back claiming me as a fellow Jedi. You can, I doubt I count as one if you start considering all the rules.

I wasn’t going to, but I get the feeling you don’t want to be that kind of Jedi anyway.

I want to be the kind of Jedi my master was and wanted me to be, the Jedi he saw in me when I couldn't see it for myself.

But I'm going to have to do that here. Just like you. I can't worry about whether or not I'll be the one to rebuild the Order when I get back home. And you can't worry about whether or not it'll need rebuilding.

Well, we can, but it won't be very productive. Or healthy, probably. Take it from a guy who was trapped in another galaxy for years who went over every possibility.

So do I.

And I almost abandoned all of it here because I didn’t think I deserved it. Because I let down not only my master, but everyone.

Now I realize that it’s not my fault. And I want to be the Jedi I’m supposed to be. What that means here, I still haven’t figured out. I have no illusions of rebuilding anything here. I just want to live the way I had been taught to the best of my ability. To honor my master and my family as best I can.

Guess we're the same then.

[Honestly, Ezra had just wanted to get away from the conversation where he was the one who needed support. He'll keep hiding his feelings a while longer, even if he's repeating all the future stuff for himself more than Obi-Wan.]

You really should change up your hair, though.

[Thats not a good way to make friends Ezra! He was trying to reach out! Now he feels a bit crestfallen.

Obi-Wan just sighs.]

We’ll see.

[Hes not much in a joking mood anymore.]

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